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Most of us don't ruin our lives with one big betrayal.
We wreck them with a thousand small lies.
You know the type I'm talking about.
When you say "yeah I'm down" when you don't really want to hangout with someone.
"Sure, I'd love to" when we mean please, no.
"That sounds great" when we mean ugh, I'd rather not.
"Maybe tomorrow" when we know we won't.
So why do we keep betraying ourselves in these tiny ways, and what is it really costing us?
Where It Showed Up in My Life
A while ago, I caught myself telling a small lie.
It wasn't dramatic - just quiet and polite.
A friend asked to hang out and I said yes when everything in me wanted to say no.
And later, I noticed I was carrying myself different. I respected myself just 0.1% less.
So why did I lie? I didn't want to look bad.
And here's what happened: I lied, they felt it, we both knew it, they pulled away, I shrank inside.
All from one small lie I thought didn't matter.
But what if these micro-lies are actually macro-damage? What if they're slowly building a life we never chose?
What the Wisdom Reveals
This reminds me of Epictetus, a slave who became Rome's greatest philosopher.
He said: "No man is free who is not master of himself."
Think about that. A man literally owned by another, teaching about freedom.
He realized that real slavery isn't physical chains - it's the inability to say what you mean and do what you say.
Every small lie, every fake "yes," every moment we betray ourselves to please others - these forge our real chains.
Epictetus believed that every time we act against our true nature, we become less free.
He told his students: "If you want to improve, be content to be thought foolish and stupid with regard to external things."
Let people think you're weird for being honest.
Let them judge you for saying no.
Because the alternative - a life built on small lies - is a prison you build yourself.
As a slave, he couldn't control his circumstances.
But he could control his responses.
He could choose truth over comfort. Integrity over approval.
And that made him more free than the emperor who ruled Rome.
How I'm Trying to Live Now
Am I ready to stop trading my freedom for other people's comfort?
I've started pausing before I speak.
Really asking myself: Is this true? Do I mean this?
It's harder than I thought. The pull to please is strong.
But I'm learning that living in truth - even in small stuff - is the only way to trust yourself.
The change doesn't need to be dramatic. It can start with a simple "I can't hang out tonight" when you mean it.
When you start telling the truth:
Your circle might shrink, but the right people draw closer
You stop leaking energy trying to maintain false versions of yourself
Your confidence grows because it's rooted in truth, not performance
You slowly build a life that's actually yours
Try this: Next time you're about to say yes when you mean no, pause.
Feel the discomfort of potential judgment.
Then choose your truth anyway.
Because every honest no is a quiet yes to yourself.
And those small yeses to yourself? They compound into a life you actually want to live.
