The Gold Buried Beneath Your Seeking

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You search for a partner to fill the loneliness, but what happens when they're gone?

You hit the gym to fix feeling inferior, but what about when you get older or sick?

We keep trying to solve internal problems with external solutions, wondering why the peace never lasts.

How many more achievements will it take before you realize they were never the answer?

For years, I was called skinny and felt inferior because of it.

So I spent years in the gym trying to solve something on the inside with weights and protein.

But it wasn't really about being skinny; it was about believing that being skinny made me less worthy.

I started working on confidence to be better with girls.

I built a business to become more respected.

I talked a certain way to appear cooler.

Each external fix worked temporarily, then the void returned, hungrier than before.

Dr. Maxwell Maltz was a plastic surgeon who discovered something profound about human nature.

In his book Psycho-Cybernetics, he describes how patients would come to him with low self-worth because of their appearance.

A crooked nose, a weak chin, some physical flaw they believed made them inferior.

So he would operate, give them the perfect nose or jawline they wanted.

And for a while, they felt better.

Until they didn't.

Because it was never about their nose.

It was about what they believed their nose meant about their worth.

Maltz realized that some patients would look in the mirror after surgery and still see the old nose.

Their external appearance had changed, but their internal self-image remained the same.

He wrote: "The self-image is the key to human personality and human behavior. Change the self-image and you change the personality and the behavior."

This led him to a revolutionary conclusion: we don't need to change our circumstances to find peace; we need to change how we see ourselves.

Am I chasing external fixes for internal voids?

I've started asking myself a different question: What would I do if I already felt whole?

Not "What do I need to feel complete?" but "What excites me from a place of fullness?"

The shift changes everything.

Now I exercise because I love taking care of my body, not to cover shame about being skinny.

I connect with people because I enjoy their stories, not because I'm lonely.

I build my business from excitement, not from needing respect.

External changes can be powerful catalysts, but they're not the cure.

Maybe lifting weights gets you moving. Maybe travel opens your mind. Maybe a relationship teaches you about love.

Use them as fuel to start your journey, but don't mistake them for the destination.

Over time, the reason shifts. You realize it was never about proving anything to anyone.

Real peace doesn't come when you hit the goal.

It comes when you realize you're whole whether or not you hit it.

When someone calls you ugly, skinny, unsuccessful, it stops stirring anything inside.

Not because you don't care, but because you're carefree about it.

You know these are just external measures that have nothing to do with your worth.

Try this: Spend time alone without drowning out negative emotions.

Feel what you actually want, not what would impress others.

Notice what you'd pursue from completeness, not lack.

The wholeness was never outside of you. It was just waiting to be remembered.