The Key to a Deliberate Life

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The harder you grind, the more you hustle, the more life bends to your will.

I believed this for years.

But what if the real key has nothing to do with endless doing?

What if it's something much quieter, much simpler?

What if it's just about being awake?

I started to wonder: What if this simple awareness—was the master key to everything?

For most of my life, I was sleepwalking.

I didn't realize it then. I thought I was living. I was busy, productive, moving.

But I was letting every thought that entered my head become my reality.

This is just how I am. This is what I'm good at. This is what people expect from me.

And soon this spilled into other areas of my life.

I kept pursuing the same habits, even when they stopped serving me. I kept doing the same things, even when they felt hollow. I kept showing up the same way, even when it drained my energy.

I wasn't living—I was repeating.

I had confused familiarity with authenticity.

And the strangest part was that I thought this was normal.

I thought you were just supposed to live this way on autopilot, following scripts you never consciously chose.

Because that’s what everyone else was doing too.

But looking back, it wasn't intelligence I lacked—it was awareness.

I was unconscious, letting life happen to me instead of flowing through me.

And the result wasn’t obvious to the outside world. But something felt off. Like a quiet kind of drift.

I was achieving things and checking boxes, but inside I had no real direction.

I recently stumbled across something that I loved.

It was a Sadhguru video that I’m paraphrasing:

Simple words with an insane impact.

Because when you really think about it—what is your life if not the projection of your inner world onto reality?

Every thought you entertain, every emotion you feed, every micro-action you take accumulates into the world you inhabit.

And if all of this is happening on autopilot, if you're not even aware of the currents moving you, how could you possibly create anything intentional?

This realization hit me in two ways:

When this clicked, everything started to change.

I started small.

I began watching my thoughts like a curious scientist.

I’d catch myself mid-pattern.

Asking questions I'd never asked: Do I actually enjoy this, or is this just what I'm supposed to enjoy?

I started saying no. This was the hardest part.

No to draining hangouts. No to gossip-heavy conversations. No to activities that numbed my spirit.

And it’s important to remember, action is key.

Because no matter how intentional you get, if you don’t act on it, nothing will come.

And for the first time, I began pursuing what I actually wanted, even when it went against the grain.

At first, it was lonely.

People thought I was becoming boring.

Maybe I was. But in that silence, something magical happened: I began to hear myself.

I discovered what actually lit me up: Writing until my thoughts crystallized. Lifting until my body felt alive. Creating until something clicked into place. Deep conversations with the people I love most.

I realized I didn't want a life of temporary highs in my twenties—I wanted to build something that could carry me for decades.

It wasn't glamorous.

It was often quiet, sometimes deeply lonely.

But it gave me something precious: freedom.

In that silence, the fearful voice in my head began to lose its grip. Not gone, but softer.

I found mentors who lit the path when it felt dark. And slowly, the container began to fill: friends who resonated deeply appeared, my work grew with clarity instead of chaos, my words began to land differently.

And it’s magical, because after 1-2 years of living this way, I think I’m finally feeling the direction.

Here's what I learned: The deliberate life doesn't come from controlling everything with an iron fist. It comes from being conscious enough that your actions are truly yours.

When you live unconsciously, life happens to you.

When you live consciously, life flows through you.

That's the difference between drifting and creating.

The question isn't whether you're thinking, doing, or acting enough.

The question is: Are you awake while you're doing it?